Good Guy Gone,Norm

Live,Learn,Love&Laugh-Man has learned to swim like a fish,fly like a bird,if only he could learn to walk like a man,then this earth would truly be a paradise!What goes around,comes around,So be nice and laugh alot!Norm got elected to sit on the board & did a good job at access aids sudbury & his sudden death put a sad feeling to this years xmas party for HIV+ persons in sudbury.At least i got to see my ex Tina,she had all her teeth pulled and is waiting for dentures.We have a 9 yr old boy in Ottawa and i asked how Jessie James is doing these days in hockey,=good,seems these "partys" always have a sad undertone to them.Why do we make such a deal about death,it happens all the time,all around us and to us,yua'd think we would be usaed to it by now,but i guess death is never easy to talk about let alone to experience it slowly.I havge experienced both and i would rather go fast myself,rather then to have it drag on and on.&b i am not alone in this feeling as i have heard theres these suicide partys starting to happen in the USA and they are becomeing more popular i guess and i can see why.who wants to live in a diaper or having to rely on someone else is the hard part for me to deal with.I have been cooking for myself since 5,and was in my own place at 15,and have looked after myself ever since i can remember.Mom had to work 2 jobs & dad wasnt around too much ,so it was just me and my bro's kickin around the house or yard.I wish my parents had instilled a bigger work ethic in me,or any work ethic for that matter.seems i am stuck on the dole,or disability for life,sucks being poor and scraping by check to check.I have been scraping by my whole life.so i am kinda used to not having certain things,car & house being the 2 biggest things i miss.I love to drive,but dont get the chance to do it that often,and hjow the hell did i go on to these subjects?thats one thing about my blogging its always just the ramnblings and mindless drivel that are caslled my thoughts as i sit here typing at this stupid machine,whynot a beautifull machine?& how did i ever get to talking about stuff that really has nothing to do with Norm??sorry bud i tend to driftwow he's gone eh?ya that sucks big time peoples!he now lives in our memories,so i guess he really isnt forgotten eh,as long as we remember him in our minds and hearts he will live on.Thats kinda comforting i think,its all i have.My fear is dimentia and if i will know when i lose my mind?and will i be able to return to sanity when once i get it?will i have moments of realization or will i be totally gone?scary questions that run through my head when i think about HIV & how it effects my life.will i remember my loved ones when i am effected by this "dimentia"thing??I will look into it and check it out,ok foilks thats all for now.have a good one and GODBless Y'all,peace be with yous!